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Wednesday, March 11th, 2009
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I said ten weeks in my last post, but then I waited 25, oh well. Same old story, never remember to post until something pisses me off.
To start off, First two terms of HomeWorks have gone decently, its not like home school kids take Irish Dance seriously when its presented (by the school) as a P.E. type class. Interest is waning for the final term and they cut it down to one hour a week, so I doubt I'll be continuing with them next school year if I'm still in town.
I know I said something on my DA and maybe MySpace (idk I hardly look at either) but I did manage to qualify for the 2009 Irish Dance World Championships. Woo. I don't mean for that to sound sarcastic, but I know that given the general tone of my Lj, that's unavoidable. Its both exciting and stressful. Its an honor to go to the first World's held in the US, even if my teacher seems to think its a waste. I would rather go to Ireland, but it'll be back there in three years anyway, and I plan on going if I have the money. Well, there's the whole qualifying thing too, but whatever lol.
( Dance is fun and it's the month of green-tinted hell )
And it is now it's almost 7am because I stopped to read a year’s worth of Lj posts. I hope I did that lj-cut right, oh well. I guess I should just close my laptop and take a nap before I have to drive into town and unlock the studio for class. I’ll try to be better about posting later, and with March being oh so stressful, I’m sure I’ll have plenty to bitch about in a few days. Ciao. (>^.^)/
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Monday, September 15th, 2008
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Ten weeks between this post and last, fun. Been awhile, and as usual, a lot has happened.
I'm finally free of McDonalds. Hurrah. I guess. As soon as I put in my two weeks, everyone started to act as if they cared about me. They gave me cards and balloons and stuff on my last day and every time I go back in they all mob me. It’s kind of awkward. My last day was the 30th of July, which was quite awhile ago lol. Since then, I've also moved out, to Cheney, of all places. It’s just great out here. >.>; Well, it’s not terrible. I still have dance out in Chattaroy, which is a bit of a drive. Uhg. I'm also teaching (dance) at Cheney's "Home Works!" home schooling program. I start on Tuesday. My friends at Kelly Irish Dancers think I should just move back to Mead and take the bus out to Cheney to teach the two classes instead of driving all over. It took awhile, like a month, but I'm over my severe home-sickness, for the most part. It is nice to be out of my parent's house.
Dance has officially taken over my life though. Monday: An Daire champ class 2-4, then I help with the other classes till 8; Tuesday: Cheney Home Works! class 1:40-2:50 or something, it’s not a lot but right in the middle of the day like that bothers me; Wednesday: An Daire team/performance class out in Oatis Orchards (which is a hell of a drive) 6-8pm; Thursday: 9am-10:30am Cheney Home Works! class; Friday: 4:30pm-??:??pm usually around 8 or 9 at Kelly theoretically working on the "It's About Time v2" show at the Met sometime in April, two weeks after World's. I suppose there's room in there for a part time job, which I do need before I run out of savings. I'm just so worn out from driving and dancing all the time as it is and Home Works hasn't even started yet x.x;
I want a Vocaloid. It would help if I understood Japanese. I want to remix some Irish Dance stuff with Vocaloids, it'd be an interesting change from the norm, I think. I get kind of bored with accordions and whatnot all the time.
I chopped my hair really short last week. It’s kinda awkward, but people usually seem to like it better sort I guess. I don't really care too much what other people think of my hair anymore, but whatever. I guess it’s good to be presentable for my new students and I'm getting my driver's license renewed this week and it'd be nice not to have shoulder-length orange for this one.
Oh right, Robert's Feis, suppose I should post about that too. It went ok, it was very odd going back to a feis. The Kettle Haran kids just glared at me the whole time. Robert said something to my mother (allegedly) that he was disappointed to see me and my brother with An Daire. Whatever, I have no interest in returning to Haran. Claire a bitch and Cait doesn't even teach classes from what I've heard what with her new kid and everything. I did, however spend a good amount of time there with some of the Spokane Haran kids, helped that Micah is now one of them, but Shannon and Lauren were nice to me and Johnathan. I think I placed 6th over all, out of 8. It’s not terrible but it could have been better. Most of my dances were 80-82s which is probably better than what I was scoring before my break, so I guess that too is good. I don't really think I have a shot at World's for next year, but I'm not going to let that stop me from trying.
My roommates seem to think that I need to start dating. Riiiight. I don't really think I have enough time outside of dance to really do that. I suppose I could but, well, you know me. :x anyway, see ya in ten weeks, maybe sooner =p
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Today was/is Rosemarry's 14th (all my friends are awkwardly young, sad, I know) birthday party. It was interesting. Well, boring as hell. I still want to stab Emma, because she's a bitch. I still play nice, because I don't want to cause a scence and my brother yells at me for not just telling her to leave me alone. I just don't want to start another drama!shitfest. Bleh. I wish I'd known Roshcelle was out of town, so I could have celebrated properly, but she's back now, so it's too late. I hate that bitch too. :3
Margaret, I know you know what my Lj is now, so its your own damn fault for reading this if you're offended. That is all, leave me alone. I will not take any blame for what you read here. Stay out of my personal life and quit showing up at my work, it freaks me the fuck out. Thank you.
Dance is dancy. I hurt my foot really bad at Rose's party playing capture the flag (in the dark, with glow-stick bracelets as flags). Ow. My. Foot.
Dance for Life, ("Robert's Feis") is only three weeks away >< I finally got my new set, Downfall of Paris, which is dreadfully over-done, but I guess its ok. And now the studio (at leas the real one) is closed for the summer. I can still pratice with Kelly, but its not the same as having other dancers of my level to practice with.
In book news, nothing. Absolutely nothing. This heat is killing my brain. I think it was 105 on Thursday or something. I know that was the high on one day and all, and there are hotter places, but I freaking hate heat. I sort of managed to work on more (utterly useless) "spell patterns." I think I posted some of the earlier ones here ages ago. This new one's got some fancy brushes I downloaded from dA. I wrote two poems to go along with it, but they still have to be translated, written out in "Okoriian" (or whatever the hell it is this week), scanned, resized, and placed on the pattern. I downloaded Fontographer, but I can't get it to work at all, so I'm putting the font thing on hold again. It says there's not enough memory to run or something, but I have like 18gb still free on my harddrive so idk. I'm not getting rid of FFXI or WoW, even though I don't play either anymore that much. (which is about 60gb >.> that would probably help my computer be less freaking slow though. meh.)
I've been going Vector Wallpaper crazy since I got Photoshop CS3, I might uplaod the better ones to my dAthing at some point, which I will leave a link to in my next post, should I choose to share them....
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A Holly Dolly Hello to everyone. Despite this disgusting heat lately, I've been stuck with a sudden good mood. I have a feeling that part of it has to do with the fact that its nearly one am and finally cool of to a decent temperature. The rest I couldn't begin to explain if I tried, so I won't. So there. lol
So, right. I've given over to complete and total insanity. I'm going to give competitive Irish Dance a try again. I'm officially joining An Darie School of Irish Dance, and I'm going to try for World's by March. Its a huge undertaking, seeing how I really haven't danced to my full effort in years. Sure there was that show in March, but really... >.> Its the Kelly Dancers, I don't want to be too much better than them. (I don't mean to sound self-absorbed, but they are kind of a laughing stock when it comes to the Irish dance world, as some of you know) If this goes badly, I'll just blame Micah. Because its just easy to blame him lol. Speaking of blaming Micah, he's joining Haran. Yeah. I guess at least I have a spy there again, now. I just hope they don't corrupt him, because everyone knows, that's my job.
Book news! I actually managed to write a (tiny) bit of main plot today. About a page, if that. Its rather pathetic really, but progress is progress, right? Also, these new songs I downloaded have been distracting me. DJ Satomi, some underground internet DJ type (I guess) I don't really know for sure. But anyway, my brother's a big fan of Satomi. His (or her) songs Waves and Castle in the Sky are the perfect songs for this battle scene I planned for my third book. I couldn't help but write the scene today, while playing the same three song on loop. (Holly Dolly Song is the third) I edited it a bit so that the battle is during the ending scenes of book one, going on where the focus of book one would not be. More time travel junk, because I love to confuse myself and convolute my plots.
( More book news, because I'm more in the mood for writing explinations of plot than acually wirting plot >.> lol )
For those ffxi friends that didn't get main parts in book three, I do have place for you, so don't worry =p unless, you don't want them, then don't worry either. I'll ask permission before I write your characters in there. I should really finish the fanfic that inspired book three, its about 15 pages long so far, might as well get that outta my system too. There's just a lot that has to be... edited. Yikes. Yeah it might not show up here lol.
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I think I said something on and off about working on the website for The Kelly irish Dancers here at some point. Well, as of 8:34pm pst tonight, the site (finally) went live. =D
www.TheKellyIrishDancers.com
Everyone should go look at the site, if only to see all the hard work I put into the layout and photo clean-up stuff. <3 (if not, just click it a few times to give it enough hits for google to pay attention =D lol)
( Other updates of silly information, book stuff, ect. )
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Saturday, March 22nd, 2008
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Now if you read today's subject line aloud, it becomes rather inappropriate and entertaining. No boss, ask how. Someone must really not like their boss. I saw it painted on the back of a truck downtown a few days ago "www.NoBossAskHow.com" My dad pointed out the joke in there, I haven't looked for the site.
Writer’s block again, at least when it comes to something productive, I seem to be able to rant about how much I hate my job really well. Not that ranting is anything new, that's pretty much all I use this journal for. Oh, and show off my hair changes. I did change my hair middle of last month, but I never took pictures, its all short and dark brown now. I have taken some pictures and I have some from the show on the 15th, but the lighting sucked and I need to touch them up a little. Its not like airbrushing myself thinner or anything lol, just cropping and lighting stuff. I'll make a separate "look at mah new hair" post later.
If you saw my last post (which was friends only) you might remember this list, but I thought I'd edt and add to it, because I'd mentioned it at work and thought of a bunch of stuff I missed. Venting is fun and hopelly entertaining to someone. >.>;
( 57 things people need to stop doing in drive through. )
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First of all, Happy St. Patrick's Day everyone! I'm not even remotely catholic, but today is more of an Irish heritage day than anything else. As such, Irish dancers are in high demand so it’s just something I've gotten used to. I am to be dancing at the "Cathy McMorris for Congress St. Patrick's Day Breakfast" today, followed by a small tour of local retirement homes, as is tradition. I have to be there at 6:45am, roughly five hours from now, which means waking up at about 4:30 am to get ready and get my brother moving. And, of course, I can't sleep at all lol.
The show, which I've mentioned a little here, went well. It was Saturday. You know, things will always go wrong here and there in any performance now matter how much you practice, and that's ok. I'm generally happy with the show. I just wish that once the final curtain dropped, I could have just gone to bed and not dealt with dancers and dance drama crap for three hours following the end of the show. I don't care what it looked like Emma, it wasn't going to happen so just stfu and gtfo, ty. Ahem. I like eyeliner, its stage make-up, deal with it. Person whose name I will not mention, and is not a dancer but still involved in dance drama I sorely wish to kill in a most violent and gruesome manner. Ah, isn't love complicated? Speaking of which, also to Emma, if you don't like me like "that," then why are you so damn clingy? We've been through this, you are a tolerated but not completely trust-worthy friend. That's it. Nothing more. Leave me alone. Stop texting me so much. Micah, if you're reading this, don't tell Emma I said that, I'll just get yelled at by her sister -.-;;; ok, enough ranting.
Apparently, Christian Slater, movie actor whom I've only heard a little about but I guess is big news, is currently filming in Spokane and came to the show. Through many convoluted paths, I came to find that Mr. Slater was present during the performance and liked it. He thought the Pirate Queen number was "cute," I guess. My mom's internet-friend's sister lives in Deer Park and her daughter goes to the Deer Park Home Link (thing) where Margaret teachs Irish Dance classes as part of school curriculum aaaaaand the daughter and the sister of the friend were sitting next to Mr. Slater at the show. Is your head spinning yet? Because mine is. Tis a small, small world after all.
Pardon me while I shoot myself for making an "Its a Small World" referance.
Anywho, in book news, something is extremely screwy with my computer and/or Word '07 and I'm just going to completely disregard its page counting. I started writing at full-swing about a week ago, only to be stopped when crunch-time for the show hit. I've rewritten this last sub-chapter about five times now, throwing in a huge plot twist that forced me to change half the outline. The plot remains the same, but I had to cut some characters out of the action for awhile before I went insane. I feel like a puppeteer whose strings are constantly getting tangled, running a party of six important characters across an epic quest. Time warps are evidently the most convenient plot device I've encountered. Or it’s just a fancy plot-hole, either way you look at it >.>;; whatever lol.
I think I may really be quitting dance for good and perhaps running away to California to get away from dance drama and stuff. I'm not really absolutely sure because the thought of making such a big move terrifies me, but at the same time there's someone I have to get away from before I go completely insane. I just can't take it anymore. Don't worry; it’s probably no one that's reading this, lol. I would elaborate, but I cannot. ^^;
~ "Break a leg, but not your own! <3"
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Friday, February 29th, 2008
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So, I was thinking of posting yet another emo-tastic rant, because life continues to suck and so on and so forth. I really shouldn't, but that's what this journal is for, right? I rolled my left ankle on Monday, but its better now. Hurt my other ankle at practice today. Show is in two weeks. Over 200 tickets have sold, out of 750 lol. I'm not the only one with injuries too, it sucks. Someone broke her wrist, two others twisted their ankles, and someone else stepped on a shard of glass. I'l be so glad when all of this mess is over. My other major issue currently, the V on my laptop only works when I slam it down, causing many a typo. Not that it has anything to do with dance.
Oh right, and I think I'm in love. Er, well I'm certain. Which is never, ever a good thing. I won't go into detail, mainly because I don't want to filter this post. Love just makes me want to die. Indeed. So to cheer myself up, I'll post some survey things I stole from ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) callise.
( Because everyone loves a meme. I'd say a good meme, but I have yet to meet one. )
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Tuesday, December 25th, 2007
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To show my "Christmas Spirit," I present this icon to everyone:
and a Happy New Year.
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Friday, December 21st, 2007
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Wednesday, December 19th, 2007
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Gah. I have like ... no... idea what to get poeple for "christmas" ><; I spent the last four hours at the mall and I have gifts for maybe half the poeple on my list?
I don't really have much to report on today. I felt like I should write something so I could use that subject title thing. Its what I call the palace in {sea} because of the white walls, floor, cieling, monsters, everything blinding white worse than {Valkrum Dunes} on crack. I spent close to three and a half hours helping my ls with CoP 8-2 ...my eyes are still stinging a day later lol. Ok, enought ffxi babble.
McDonald's "crew" "holiday" party is tomorrow. At Chuck E. Cheese's. I only wish I were joking. In honor of the oh-so-tasteless choice of venue, I'm going full emo-tastic, everything short of dying my hair lol (and the piercing, cause I can't find my fake ones) It shall be most fun. I might even post a picture, if I dond't blind myself with eyeliner.
Speaking of work, we're closed for Christmas, which is a Tuesday, therefore, for the first time in five months, I get two days off in a row! zomg.
Off to wrap what little gifts I have and repaint my nails >.>;; yeah I know that sounds bad, but I won't have time after work before the party and the look just would't be compleat without blue and black nails. (tangent! I painted my nails last week for this concert thing and I just left 'em until today, and boy was work interesting with crazy nails. I mean, whataever its just paint, right? You'd think differently if you saw the looks on the costumer's faces . Ah, its so gratifying knowing that I can at least scare a few people without waving knives at them.)
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Monday, December 10th, 2007
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Hello everypersonthingandobjectthing!
Dance continues to be lame. So does work. And that little thing called life.
I started the fanfic I swore I'd never wright. The one about blahblahblah and such. I don't want to give away the plot because I might post it here. I had decided not to write it as a fanfic but rather traslate it to Paardhail and make it my third book. Sadly, I have hit yet another writer's block episode, as if there's a factory pumping blocks out just for me. So, when I was hit with insperation to write, fanfic or not, I took it and ran. Its been awhile since I actual enjoyed writing, too bad any versoin of this latest tangent will have to be heavily editted for... content reasons, before I can post it anywhere. Unless I get permission from certain persons. Being that it is set in FFXI, there are few stock characters, so when I use my friend's names and personalities I feel like I owe it to them to get otherization to use their orginal character names and such.
That aside, I'll post this pointless meme. I did this one last year lol but oh well. Out of all the holiday mems floating around, this one's a classic.
( I guess I was naughty this year )
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Tuesday, December 4th, 2007
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So, just because its tradition, its time to... rant about how much I hate my job! but first, this advertisement!
Just kidding? >.> Yeah, so, today at work, manager!kevin put me on "meats"(the "kitchen" or "grill" where food products are "prepared") which is fine and all, except not. Sure, I get a break from the torturous chasm of hellfire known as "drive through" but at the cost of it being the end of the fucking world every three seconds. Timers going off non-stop, putting this and that and the other thing to cook, only to have the first two items start to burn half way through starting the third item. And then to be interrupted will all of the above with manager!kevin screaming about needing catsup or something. it was quite the work out, running around for hours on a slippery floor next to 300+ degree grills and oil vats.
I need to go shopping for gifts. I know it doesn't make sense. I'm not Christian, why should I celebrate a (stolen and heavily warped) Christian holiday? Let alone spend my hard-earned money on silly little gifts? I have no idea. But I have a list long enough to choke a... ok I'll spare you all from that joke. Anyway. Shopping. Need to do.
Industrial strength nail polish, you say? Well, its a long and convoluted tale of woe and flat tires. I'll give you the "reader's digest" version: I colored my nails with black ink, then covered that with sever layers of black nail polish and left it on for about three days. When I tried to take off the polish, the ink had stained my nails pretty badly. Thankfully, after three hours of scrubbing with nail polish remover and two hours with industrial strength graffiti cleaner, my nails are no longer emo!black. They are, however, dried out, as is my skin. The graffiti remover stuff is one of those cleaning chemicals with all the "do not leave near children, eyes, skin. do not taste or swallow blahblahblah." I was reeling from the fumes of the crap after two hours of exposure. T'was most fun, because this was all at work this morning. Where else would you find industrial strength graffiti cleaner? (the normal nail enamel remover stuff I did at home last night)
I should work on my book, but I'm lazy.
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Thursday, November 8th, 2007
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I sure have been posting a lot lately. Oh well, sorry for the spam.
So, I don't remeber if I said anyhting on here about this but... I've been writing some short stories starring my characters. This is mainly due to writer's block and a head full of plot bunnies that don't apply well to my book. I posted the most, erm, tame might be the right word, one of the stories on my Deviant Art page, which can be found: Here. I call it "McHell" Its about the main character from book three trapped taking my place at McDonalds. >.> lol
Back to trying to work on my book. Weeee.
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Tuesday, November 6th, 2007
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Monday, November 5th, 2007
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I did just post what's below on MySpace, so please pardon the distant feeling to it. I'm rather too lazy to fix tense and change explinations. I do feel like Lj knows me better than MySpace. I still don't like MySpace all that much, mostly because I've been with Lj for so long. I won't go into my reason for poking around MySpace because most people aren't as stupid as I'd make them out to be and I'd rather not have strangers figure out my thought patterns.
Well, well. I do so hate daylight savings time. Costumers at work (McDonalds, terrible, isn't it?) get awfully angry when the times change but their eating habits lag behind. I don't know how many people yelled at me because we were still serving breakfast at what they though was 11am.
I've been reading Stephanie Meyer's vampire books lately, almost done with the last one, in fact. Something about knowing a story is coming to an end has always been hard for me. I spent about two years dragging out Zelda:OoT just because I didn't want it to end. Yes, I'm pathetic. Less than 50 pages to go with Eclipse, I should just get it over with instead of letting it bug me.
Almost done with the new choreography for the big St. Patrick's Day show, being an Irish Dancer puts you in high demand for stuff around that time, and the dance school I'm currently with managed to reserve the "Bing Crosby Theatre" (used to be the Metropolitan until two years ago) It’s the second biggest stage in town, second only to the Opera House, which I doubt I'll ever perform on lol.
I think I may have really broken my toe. I kicked a wall at work, as I do from time to time. That was about three weeks ago now, and my toe still hurts. I can move it and it never swelled up or anything so it must be minor. I can still dance, so its not too bad.
I should buckle down and work on my book. Perchance, that's what I'll do when I'm done reading Eclipse. I guess I'll stop waiting. I was only really writing this to distract me while I waited. Guess you're asleep. I should be too, have work at 6am tomorrow lol.
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Sunday, October 28th, 2007
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Yeah, everyone can just disregard that last post. I was just overreacting, as usual, right? I'm trying to work on it lol. At least I have that damned acid reflux under control for the most part, right?
Just bought New Moon, second in that series thing. Haven't started reading it yet. idk.
I had another thought to add to this but now I forget. Idk. Things. And. Stuff.
Bought some new clothes at Macy’s *gasp* way over priced, but I figured it was about time I gave myself something for not killing anyone at work. I might go back to a cheaper department store and buy some new collared shirts though cause I need a wider variety and spell check.
Went bowling with Emma and her youth group thing. Total waste of gas. Drove all the way out to the valley (and got compleatly lost on the way there) to bowl for about an hour. Yeah. I suck at bowling too. Uhg. Emma, if you're reading this, you have no business reading my Lj and I hope the above statement made you cry, or at least makes you see that I'm getting tired of your antics. ahem I'll remove the rest of what I was going to say. I may be in a far better mood right now buuut yeah. Anyway.
Had some new ideas for my (third) book. Might try to work on writing soonish. Hopefully I won't have to spend the whole day at dance tomorrow. I thought I broke my toe on wednesday cause I kicked a wall (out of rage) really hard and like lost my balance and stuff. Its hard to explain in text, mostly because I'm lazy.
I think its getting time to dye my hair again. My roots are already showing -.-;;; I'll probably let it go for another few months though while constantly saying I need to get it fixed (like last time) I think I'll go black next just cause. Or keep the red, idk. I like the highlights, but the get lost under my hat at work so it doesn't really seem worth it.
I'm very sleepy all of a sudden, guess I'm like emotionally exhausted from worrying over nothing and now that I know I can stop my brain says that I need some sleep.
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Friday, October 26th, 2007
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Well, I really haven't had time to update lately. I haven't even touched my book in the last month at least. Yes, I read your comment Lan, but I didn't know how to respond without sounding desffensive. I did, however, go and edit a lot shortly after my last post.
Anyway, I don't really know what to say here, as per usual. I just finished reading Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. It was pretty good, but a little out of my norm. Um yeah.
My life has taken some very unnexpected turns lately which have left me rather mentally dizzy. Due to the, um, range of people that might be reading this, I can't really explain it.
Right then. This is awefully awkward, but I thought I should update. Time for bed now, work at 6am. Fun. -.-;
(And you, you know who you are. If you read this, text me or something so I know you're not dead. You're starting to worry me. I'm trying very, very hard not to be overly clingy. Sorry.)
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Wednesday, September 26th, 2007
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...is totaly overrated.
I went and drank an entire bottle of rasberry smirnoff ice, mostly because I have no self controll and just kept drinking. >.>; It tasted way better than the crappy wine I had on my birthday, too. But yeah, the "buzz" lastest for maybe two hours and now I just have a bad headache. Big deal. I don't understand drunks. Serisouly, lol. Oh, and I guess my spelling improves when I'm at the height of drunk, too bad I can't spell decently all the time.
Also, to callise, sorry about the lack of response to your comment, I'm totally not used to complements and I realy don't know how to respond grascialy to that lol. (Except with perhaps my long-winded and well-practiced speach about all the plastic surgery I've wanted since I was ten >.>; )
I think I'm making some progress on my book, if only I could see through the haze of my minor-hangover thing. Off to go attempt at writting.
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Friday, September 21st, 2007
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Bah. I've been all depressed and stuff all day. I'm so sick of being like this. Anyway.
I promised pictures of my new hair. These aren't very good cause you can't see the highlights. Anyway, lot's of pictures below the cut. Strangly I didn't touch these up, which is odd. All I did was resize them. And to top it off, you can see my face. Holy crap. I know.
( Alavan-red with white-blond highlights in a style reminsant of Roxas )
There it is, not much else to say. My head hurts from all the hair spray and stuff. I should go get drunk now or something.
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sleepy.
discontent.
excited.
bleh! ><;.
morose.
I have no idea!.
pensive? perhaps distracted.
undecided but generally better.