All hail Lord Vawn!

This is the song that doesn't end

2009-03-11T14:06:40Z

I said ten weeks in my last post, but then I waited 25, oh well. Same old story, never remember to post until something pisses me off.

To start off, First two terms of HomeWorks have gone decently, its not like home school kids take Irish Dance seriously when its presented (by the school) as a P.E. type class. Interest is waning for the final term and they cut it down to one hour a week, so I doubt I'll be continuing with them next school year if I'm still in town.

I know I said something on my DA and maybe MySpace (idk I hardly look at either) but I did manage to qualify for the 2009 Irish Dance World Championships. Woo. I don't mean for that to sound sarcastic, but I know that given the general tone of my Lj, that's unavoidable. Its both exciting and stressful. Its an honor to go to the first World's held in the US, even if my teacher seems to think its a waste. I would rather go to Ireland, but it'll be back there in three years anyway, and I plan on going if I have the money. Well, there's the whole qualifying thing too, but whatever lol.

I started up FFXI sometime around Christmas-breakish lasted until around mid-February. I sold my soul... I mean, joined KoN's most recent incarnation, which wasn't as bad as I expected. Unfortunately, with March being the busiest month for any Irish Dancer, what with shows every weekend and extra, emergency practices all the time, I just haven't had time for the hours upon hours of HNM hunting. Speaking of online gaming, I did get in on the Ether Saga Online closed beta, which started mid feb. I think. I was on there for about a week and lost interest. Free grinders really don't hold my interest for long, but it was new and pretty, and something that didn't mean an 8 hour shift every time I logged on.

Now, if you're wondering why I'm up at 5am writing in my Lj on a night before dance class, blame iTunes. I refused and refused to update to version 8, because I'm OCD against updating programs or something, maybe its years of two-day long FFXI updates, idk. So, I needed to buy the sound track of Feet of Flames, you know, Michael Flatley. Well, I tried to purchase it, and a little window told downloading required 7.6 (or something) version, and proceeded to redirect me to an update page. I bit the bullet, and updated iTunes, and about an hour later, because my internet is being slow, and relaunch iTunes only to find that my account has been billed for a purchase, but it didn't download, nor did it give me a choice to start the download. SO I just got billed $11 something for files I don't have. I hate iTunes. I guess I'll just have to wait until a more reasonable hour and call a costumer help line and scream at someone until I get my damn files. I don't even like any of the songs, I don't know why my dance teacher insists on using songs from outdated stage-shows. Sure, its better than country-esque crap like "Crooked Kilt" but it’s only a little better. Hmm, I wonder if I try to "purchase album" again, if it'll let it go through, even though my account isn't displaying enough money for it. >.> worth a try I guess. Meh.

I took up writing again, for a few weeks somewhere in there. The little short story, loosely based on my book world, might take the form of a dance show next year. I was inspired by some horrible little story, written by a nine-year-old, in Irish Dancing Magazine's October edition. I thought I could do better with a similar idea. I started writing it, but kinda lost interest (because that's what tigers do best) and let it go, but recently the board decided the Spokane location should do a show to help boost our funds next year. Ohmygod I forgot to talk about the council of terror? I'll get to that in the next paragraph. Anyway, I started reading through old Irish lore and whatnots again, trying to find something that could translate into a dance show and still sound Irish. That lasted about half an hour. I don' mind Irish fairy tales, but they're always sad, almost gorey, endings and/or so fanciful it'd take a budget of a few hundred thousand and my own band to pull of properly. Out of the blue, that little story I started (in November) popped back in my head, and I've spent my spare time trying to adapt it and finish it. The problem of costuming remains however, because to make me happy, it'll cost, oh I'd guess five or six thousand and that's being cheap. So, yeah, problems. The story goes, a girl wins the US National Championships and receives an enchanted crystal trophy. The trophy transports her to the realm of the Faerie King, who tales the girl of a terrible evil threatening Faerie. I'd like to call that terrible evil the uncertified Irish dance teachers of the world, but that might only stir more local drama up. Anyway, the Faerie King puts the girl through some sort of trial or Irish Dance battle training, cheesy, I know, but its not as bad as the Irish dance themed battle rpg my brother and I came up with about 7 years ago. Following the trial/training the girl receives an enchanted solo dress to aid her in her fight against evil. The dress ends up eating so much money, a good solo dress costs around 2-4 thousand dollars and roughly six months to make, because it can't just be whatever girl that's playing the part's solo dress, it has to be a new one fit for the part. I only say that because there are some fantastically ugly dresses out there. If I remember, I'll try to keep everyone updated on this show, if it happens.

6am already, bleh. The Council of Terror is a little nick-name I gave the Spokane Celic Arts, essentially a booster club for An Daire Spokane for the time being, with hopes to further Celtic arts in the area when the dance has stabilized. We've been through more of our share of upheavals, back-stabbing, lies, and deceit in the last six months. The board has been reformed once already due to people leaving for our rival school. It's finally calmed down enough that I'm not getting 15 emails a day about schedule changes recently, but I think that's because everyone's been working too hard on St. Patrick's Day crap to have time for petty bickering. I guess that's really all there is to say on that matter.

Bleh I guess I'll just have to buy the one song I need now, seeing how there's a show Friday, oh well. I'll bill it to SCA >.>; lol. I'm sure this looks more like a wall of text now than it will once I post it, but I'm sure its at least a page or two by now. Anything else I should update on? Dance, dance, dance, ffxi, writing, dance, more dance... I think that really covers my life. I thought about starting a YouTube blog, but that's so over-done and it’s not like I update my Lj consistently, doubt I'd be any better about making films, and it'd be more work, and there's the whole... people would see my face and hear my voice thing. As my brother pointed out, I don't really want to be the next Chris Crocker "LEAVE BRITNEY ALONE! *SOB*" Yeeeaaaaah...no.

And it is now it's almost 7am because I stopped to read a year’s worth of Lj posts. I hope I did that lj-cut right, oh well. I guess I should just close my laptop and take a nap before I have to drive into town and unlock the studio for class. I’ll try to be better about posting later, and with March being oh so stressful, I’m sure I’ll have plenty to bitch about in a few days. Ciao. (>^.^)/

A dream is a wish your heart breaks

2008-09-15T08:19:44Z

Ten weeks between this post and last, fun. Been awhile, and as usual, a lot has happened.

I'm finally free of McDonalds. Hurrah. I guess. As soon as I put in my two weeks, everyone started to act as if they cared about me. They gave me cards and balloons and stuff on my last day and every time I go back in they all mob me. It’s kind of awkward. My last day was the 30th of July, which was quite awhile ago lol. Since then, I've also moved out, to Cheney, of all places. It’s just great out here. >.>; Well, it’s not terrible. I still have dance out in Chattaroy, which is a bit of a drive. Uhg. I'm also teaching (dance) at Cheney's "Home Works!" home schooling program. I start on Tuesday. My friends at Kelly Irish Dancers think I should just move back to Mead and take the bus out to Cheney to teach the two classes instead of driving all over. It took awhile, like a month, but I'm over my severe home-sickness, for the most part. It is nice to be out of my parent's house.

Dance has officially taken over my life though. Monday: An Daire champ class 2-4, then I help with the other classes till 8; Tuesday: Cheney Home Works! class 1:40-2:50 or something, it’s not a lot but right in the middle of the day like that bothers me; Wednesday: An Daire team/performance class out in Oatis Orchards (which is a hell of a drive) 6-8pm; Thursday: 9am-10:30am Cheney Home Works! class; Friday: 4:30pm-??:??pm usually around 8 or 9 at Kelly theoretically working on the "It's About Time v2" show at the Met sometime in April, two weeks after World's. I suppose there's room in there for a part time job, which I do need before I run out of savings. I'm just so worn out from driving and dancing all the time as it is and Home Works hasn't even started yet x.x;

I want a Vocaloid. It would help if I understood Japanese. I want to remix some Irish Dance stuff with Vocaloids, it'd be an interesting change from the norm, I think. I get kind of bored with accordions and whatnot all the time.

I chopped my hair really short last week. It’s kinda awkward, but people usually seem to like it better sort I guess. I don't really care too much what other people think of my hair anymore, but whatever. I guess it’s good to be presentable for my new students and I'm getting my driver's license renewed this week and it'd be nice not to have shoulder-length orange for this one.

Oh right, Robert's Feis, suppose I should post about that too. It went ok, it was very odd going back to a feis. The Kettle Haran kids just glared at me the whole time. Robert said something to my mother (allegedly) that he was disappointed to see me and my brother with An Daire. Whatever, I have no interest in returning to Haran. Claire a bitch and Cait doesn't even teach classes from what I've heard what with her new kid and everything. I did, however spend a good amount of time there with some of the Spokane Haran kids, helped that Micah is now one of them, but Shannon and Lauren were nice to me and Johnathan. I think I placed 6th over all, out of 8. It’s not terrible but it could have been better. Most of my dances were 80-82s which is probably better than what I was scoring before my break, so I guess that too is good. I don't really think I have a shot at World's for next year, but I'm not going to let that stop me from trying.

My roommates seem to think that I need to start dating. Riiiight. I don't really think I have enough time outside of dance to really do that. I suppose I could but, well, you know me. :x anyway, see ya in ten weeks, maybe sooner =p

Practice makes ... my foot hurt

2008-07-06T07:22:58Z

Today was/is Rosemarry's 14th (all my friends are awkwardly young, sad, I know) birthday party. It was interesting. Well, boring as hell. I still want to stab Emma, because she's a bitch. I still play nice, because I don't want to cause a scence and my brother yells at me for not just telling her to leave me alone. I just don't want to start another drama!shitfest. Bleh. I wish I'd known Roshcelle was out of town, so I could have celebrated properly, but she's back now, so it's too late. I hate that bitch too. :3

Margaret, I know you know what my Lj is now, so its your own damn fault for reading this if you're offended. That is all, leave me alone. I will not take any blame for what you read here. Stay out of my personal life and quit showing up at my work, it freaks me the fuck out. Thank you.

Dance is dancy. I hurt my foot really bad at Rose's party playing capture the flag (in the dark, with glow-stick bracelets as flags). Ow. My. Foot.

Dance for Life, ("Robert's Feis") is only three weeks away >< I finally got my new set, Downfall of Paris, which is dreadfully over-done, but I guess its ok. And now the studio (at leas the real one) is closed for the summer. I can still pratice with Kelly, but its not the same as having other dancers of my level to practice with.

In book news, nothing. Absolutely nothing. This heat is killing my brain. I think it was 105 on Thursday or something. I know that was the high on one day and all, and there are hotter places, but I freaking hate heat. I sort of managed to work on more (utterly useless) "spell patterns." I think I posted some of the earlier ones here ages ago. This new one's got some fancy brushes I downloaded from dA. I wrote two poems to go along with it, but they still have to be translated, written out in "Okoriian" (or whatever the hell it is this week), scanned, resized, and placed on the pattern. I downloaded Fontographer, but I can't get it to work at all, so I'm putting the font thing on hold again. It says there's not enough memory to run or something, but I have like 18gb still free on my harddrive so idk. I'm not getting rid of FFXI or WoW, even though I don't play either anymore that much. (which is about 60gb >.> that would probably help my computer be less freaking slow though. meh.)

I've been going Vector Wallpaper crazy since I got Photoshop CS3, I might uplaod the better ones to my dAthing at some point, which I will leave a link to in my next post, should I choose to share them....

Fantasy isn't a Crime

2008-05-19T08:57:51Z

A Holly Dolly Hello to everyone. Despite this disgusting heat lately, I've been stuck with a sudden good mood. I have a feeling that part of it has to do with the fact that its nearly one am and finally cool of to a decent temperature. The rest I couldn't begin to explain if I tried, so I won't. So there. lol

So, right. I've given over to complete and total insanity. I'm going to give competitive Irish Dance a try again. I'm officially joining An Darie School of Irish Dance, and I'm going to try for World's by March. Its a huge undertaking, seeing how I really haven't danced to my full effort in years. Sure there was that show in March, but really... >.> Its the Kelly Dancers, I don't want to be too much better than them. (I don't mean to sound self-absorbed, but they are kind of a laughing stock when it comes to the Irish dance world, as some of you know) If this goes badly, I'll just blame Micah. Because its just easy to blame him lol. Speaking of blaming Micah, he's joining Haran. Yeah. I guess at least I have a spy there again, now. I just hope they don't corrupt him, because everyone knows, that's my job.

Book news! I actually managed to write a (tiny) bit of main plot today. About a page, if that. Its rather pathetic really, but progress is progress, right? Also, these new songs I downloaded have been distracting me. DJ Satomi, some underground internet DJ type (I guess) I don't really know for sure. But anyway, my brother's a big fan of Satomi. His (or her) songs Waves and Castle in the Sky are the perfect songs for this battle scene I planned for my third book. I couldn't help but write the scene today, while playing the same three song on loop. (Holly Dolly Song is the third) I edited it a bit so that the battle is during the ending scenes of book one, going on where the focus of book one would not be. More time travel junk, because I love to confuse myself and convolute my plots.

So, suppose during Menadari's assault on Tovenaar and the Dark Witch (who's name is now Shiinadar Haalnk, because Esmerelda doesn't quite fit with the rest of my fantasy names. I also know that Esmerelda is not the proper Earth spelling of that name, but its not supposed to be Earth...anymore. My plot twisted in on itself again >< so that's even more confusing. I'll explain Earth's connection to Paardhail later with that fairy tale I mentioned in my last post.) That was one long side track. Ok. I totally lost the flow of thought there. Near the end of book one (Jewel of Cindar) Menadari and friends assault Tovenaar with the power of the fabled Jewel itself. Tovenaar is surrounded by a wall of black magic that reaches the sky, as well as hordes of daemon lizards. So, thanks to Edhelmir (spoiler, not explaining) the group surpasses most of the ground troops. But shattering the wall takes time, and thousands of years later, Menadari, now the Goddess, sees why they weren't attacked from the back more heavily while she cast the spells to break the black magics, she intervened with her divine magic. That's right, she helped herself. Or something. This isn't necessarily cannon, and it won't appear in the first book, probably. At least not directly. I might include reference to the end of it, where the six Lords hover above the battlefield and Edhelmir sees them before the wall starts to shatter. I think I'd put it in if my publisher (when I have one) thinks it'd be a good idea to hint at the Lords in the first book. I'd rather it not look like the ideas just popped into the series as I thought of them, that's one of my biggest pet peeves in writing.

I'll be posting this on my dA as soon as I finish updating this, but its just easier to write in LJ

Fantasy isn't a Crime
even if time travel is

-----With a burst of Sapphire light, Vawn soared skywards. His goddess-granted energy wings cast a dancing light across the cloud darkened battlefield. He spun in the air, tearing his sword from sub-space, sounding a crack and sizzle and the mystic blade was free from its extra dimensional scabbard.
-----Vawn’s radiant blue hair snapped in the wind as he dove towards the din of battle. He slammed the flat of the Sapphire Sword across the face of a twisted lizard-daemon. The daze monster staggered backwards, twin lines of green blood oozing from its cheek to trace it reptilian jaw. The Okoriian Lord spun past the disoriented daemon to dive at it again, the point of his blade burst through the beast’s chest in a flash of enchanted Sygna metal. Vawn kicked the daemon free of his sword.
-----Shooting back up, high above the showy mass of monsters, Vawn survived the scene. Seeing his comrade encircled by daemon, the Sapphire Lord swooped in to lend a hand. Dancing with fluid grace, the Emerald Lord twirled his staff across his foes, leaving streaks of green lights in the wake of his dead weapon. The demi-goddess, Ig Core Najinaraah, always at Julian’s side, was busily strangling several daemon with enthralled vines.
-----Vawn let his blade float by his side, out stretched his hands, palms facing the entangled daemon. The air grew frigid, turning the heavy rain to biting snow around him. Julian looked up to see his friend lined with dancing, blue fire. He shouted a word of warning to his goddess, who drifted upwards in a tangle of emerald ribbons.
-----Julian rolled out of the range just as the steam of blue flames struck the ground. Vawn let out a primal roar as the divine magic bit at his soul. The battlefield was engulfed in the raging sapphire fires, charred daemon crumbled in the intense blaze.
-----Dropping his hands, Vawn ceased the flaming assault. In the sudden absence of magic, the flames vanished, leaving white-blue frost. The chill spread, turning what remain of the daemon to gruesome, crystalline statuary.
-----Vawn groggily flew to Julian’s side, they quickly embraced before Julian took off at a run to aid another of their besieged comrades, Najinaraah flying behind him. Vawn watched the Emerald lord let out his emerald energy wings to fly even with Najinaraah, both rushed to help the Ruby Lord. Knowing the two could easily dispatch the small group of daemon, Vawn turned his attention about the craggy landscape. Accounting for himself, Julian, and Simon; that left three more Lords that Vawn figured he should at least warn of the deadly frost he’d left to spread.
-----A flash of orange-ish light caught Vawn’s attention. That’d be Bart, Vawn thought with a chuckle. He grabbed his sword and flew in the direction of the orange light.
-----Topaz Lord, Bartholomew, fought with the fluid grace that put all the other Lords of Cindar to shame. Armed only with twin rings that produced small fields of magic around his fists, he flatted daemon just as quickly as his more magically talented brethren.
-----Bart dropped to a crouch, his glowing arms trailing limply behind. He snapped up, spinning on one foot, the topaz afterimage mixed with the spar of green blood as several daemon lost their heads. Springing atop one headless monster, Bartholomew, leap up high in the air. Heel leading, Bart dropped like a comet, crushing another monster’s skull.
-----Without time to shout a warning, Vawn hurled his blade into the chest of a daemon that snuck up on Bart while he regained his balance. The Sapphire Lord fly low to the ground, cutting a path through the daemon with a weak steam of blue fire. Vawn tore free his sword when he reached Bart, they nodded to each other before turning back to back.
-----Bart continued his violent barrage of kicks and punches, smearing daemon across the rocks. Vawn released his blade to float again; his right hand touched the Orzaar crystal set in his circlet. A dazzling flash of blue light formed a complex circular pattern before Vawn. He struck his left hand through the center of the image. Lightening exploded from the runes hanging in the air. Bits of rock and charred lizard flew in every direction as the fan of electricity danced away from Vawn.
-----“Glad you’re on your side,” Bart joked, his glowing fist stuck through the chest of a convulsing daemon.
-----Vawn held his hand to his open in mock horror, “same to you.” He stuck out his tongue at his friend. He then grabbed his blade out the air, spun around, chopping an advancing daemon in half.
-----“Don’t get distracted,” Bart laughed, ducking under a wickedly serrated axe. He led up with an equally wicked punch through the creature’s jaw, Bart’s magic ring frying the thing’s brain.
-----The ground shook violently, tearing fissures in random, spidery patterns. Bartholomew took the hint and spread his topaz wings, both flew up to see the great wall of black magic that encircled Tovenaar covered in similar crags. Vawn could spot the other four Lords in the distance, Emerald, Ruby, and Amethyst glowing brightly in the gloom. Lord Bradley was always difficult to spot in these conditions, but Vawn could see the darkness warped in the image of Cindar’s Wings near the purple glow of Aaurun.
-----A blinding flash of the purest, white light poured from the base of the great wall. The dark barrier shattered like so many panes of glass, glancing off each other in an echoing cacophony. The booming shards of dark magic were accented by the pain-drenched cries of the dying daemon.
-----Each of the six Lords reached for their Orzaar crystals simultaneously, intoned the same short incantation. Six glimmering tears in the fabric of reality helped to light the bloody field as light poured from the parting clouds. Vawn took one last glance at this historic battle before flying through his portal, back to his rightful time.
~******~

All characters, plot points, weapons, monsters, and the "book" in copyright myself. Likenesses to real people, however faint, are used with permission. I will not hesitate to prosecute plagiarists to the fullest extent of the law. Please respect my hard work, this is my life, after all.

I trust most of the people on LJ, but I just want to make that very clear. I do work my ass off for my stories, and I'd be extremely upset if someone stole any of this and tried to claim it as their own work. For those that have seen "Angry Alavan" you know what fate faces those that cross my path lol. Except I'm more violent than I used to be. >.>;

For those ffxi friends that didn't get main parts in book three, I do have place for you, so don't worry =p unless, you don't want them, then don't worry either. I'll ask permission before I write your characters in there. I should really finish the fanfic that inspired book three, its about 15 pages long so far, might as well get that outta my system too. There's just a lot that has to be... edited. Yikes. Yeah it might not show up here lol.

Yes, and it'll be filled with shrimp.

2008-05-14T04:53:06Z

I think I said something on and off about working on the website for The Kelly irish Dancers here at some point. Well, as of 8:34pm pst tonight, the site (finally) went live. =D

www.TheKellyIrishDancers.com

Everyone should go look at the site, if only to see all the hard work I put into the layout and photo clean-up stuff. <3 (if not, just click it a few times to give it enough hits for google to pay attention =D lol)

Other updates, book stuff, ect.

Seeing how it’s been about six weeks since I last updated, I seriously doubt I mentioned half the broiling seas of dance drama. More or less the same and it only gets worse when it involves matters of the heart. My heart, to be exact, otherwise I'd just be able to back out quietly and watch the war from a safe distance.

Two Saturdays ago I burned my hand pretty badly on a cookie sheet (just like I did this time last year -.-) This time it was right on my hand. Its a severe first degree, which isn't bad, but not exactly good either. Its mostly healed now, I'd say about Sunday or Monday and it'll be just fine.

Fly For Fun? Fly For Money! I don't really know. If anyone has ever heard of it, Fly For Fun (or FlyFF) is a free Korean MMORPG. Bright colors, elevator music, endless level grinding, and a plot that makes about as much sense as something written by a third grader on acid. At least this mediocre glomp through a circus/clockwork themed fantasy land has lent some inspiration to more back story for Ye Old Book. I think I might write out the major back-story stuff in a cute, detached, fairytale style and post it here later. Or, heavens forefend, write it into a poem and use it as opening number um... I think I'm on 17 now. I rewrite the opening a lot.

I had more to say, but its kinda late now. I'll share the rest later if I remeber to lol.

No boss? Ask how!

2008-03-23T02:57:46Z

Now if you read today's subject line aloud, it becomes rather inappropriate and entertaining. No boss, ask how. Someone must really not like their boss. I saw it painted on the back of a truck downtown a few days ago "www.NoBossAskHow.com" My dad pointed out the joke in there, I haven't looked for the site.

Writer’s block again, at least when it comes to something productive, I seem to be able to rant about how much I hate my job really well. Not that ranting is anything new, that's pretty much all I use this journal for. Oh, and show off my hair changes. I did change my hair middle of last month, but I never took pictures, its all short and dark brown now. I have taken some pictures and I have some from the show on the 15th, but the lighting sucked and I need to touch them up a little. Its not like airbrushing myself thinner or anything lol, just cropping and lighting stuff. I'll make a separate "look at mah new hair" post later.

If you saw my last post (which was friends only) you might remember this list, but I thought I'd edt and add to it, because I'd mentioned it at work and thought of a bunch of stuff I missed. Venting is fun and hopelly entertaining to someone. >.>;

57 things that people should stop doing in drive through and idiotic complaints that I’m sick of hearing.

1-We're not serving lunch yet/ we stopped severing breakfast - and that's all you wanted and you missed it by -just so much- and isn't there any of what they want available? No. Its noon, there's no breakfast. No, it nine am, we don't have a double quarter with cheese. Why would you ever want to eat that at nine in the morning anyway? Or at all.

2-Some idiot can't figure out how sales tax works and they have to dispute the price.

3-Some idiot orders a large amount of food and then doesn't understand why their total is $30 or more

4-We don't have the toy their kid wants, so I have to go hunting through the boxes for the one it wants.

5-They come through the drive through and get $100 in gift cards, at five dollars per card. Any order over $50 has to have a manager cash out because they don't trust crew.

6-They pay in a random assortment of change.

7-They pay in a random assortment of change and don't wait for me to count it all. I tell the people at the next window not to hand out the food until I'm done counting, but they don't listen.

8-They hand me a huge amount of change, I count it, they wait like good little robots, and its 50 cents short. So they want all the change handed back and pay with a card.

9-People are exceedingly rude. All the time. They don't wait their turn, they drive off the mic area without waiting for their total and then yell at me because they don't know the total.

10-They yell at me for giving them a Canadian anything, penny, dime quarter and insist I give them "real money." Ok, first of all, Canadian money is worth more right now. Secondly, if people didn't use it like American money in the first place, I wouldn't have this problem at all. Lastly, besides the quarter, does it really matter? Just pass it off to someone else like American money, it’s what everyone else does, obviously someone did, because I wouldn't have the damn thing then, would I?

11-I tell them the total at the mic, and when I greet them at my window, and it’s on the screen at the mic when they order, and they have the nerve to ask what their total is right after I tell them for, effectively the third time, what their total is.

12-People come up to the mic and have the nerve to tell me to wait. I'm busy. Know what you want when you get to me or get out of my drive through.

13-"Just a minute" we don't sell minutes, moments are on back order, and seconds are out of stalk. We sell food. Buy food, or go somewhere else. Just go somewhere else.

14-Make me the bad guy and have me tell your crying kid that we don't have Happy Meals during breakfast. Sure, I hate kids, but I've been so close to tears lately that I take pity on them, even if they are disgusting.

15-People smell. Bad. Take a shower.

16-People need to come through the drive through fully clothed. No bathrobes. But bathrobes are better than undergarments alone. I'm taller than you might think, I can see in your car, weather I want to or not. Ew.

17-Clean your car. Its stinks and it’s a mess. Do you live in there? Probably. Then I'll say clean your house.

17-People are fat. Disgustingly fat. Morbidly obese. When you and your wife are so fat that the two of you in the front seat are so heavy that the nose of the car is nearing the pavement, it’s time to stop eating McDonalds and get lipo.

18-Don't come in drunk. I don't care how funny -you- think it is, but no one is going to make a McFlurry with only the green M&Ms for you. Get some ice cream, M&Ms and a blender and have at it, bitch.

19-No insane custom orders. "One double cheese no catsup, extra pickle and mustered, light onions, add tomato and lettuce" might look simple, but that's after I've translated it from "lsuhffliavliabagsbvlashbgPICKLE!" Because, honestly, that's what it sounds like half the time.

20-The double cheese burger is not on the dollar menu here. It has never, nor shall it ever be. Get over it. Its $1.73 after tax.

21-The bacon cheese burger is no longer on the dollar menu. Deal with it.

22-For the last time: Yes, we still have the two cheeseburger meal! So help me, I will tear out your eyes and make that a meal if you ask me again.

23-Don't yell at me when all the prices go up, things are expensive, you're just being stupid. I don't set the prices, I just push the buttons.

24-Don't get mad at me when I ask you to repeat part of your order, I'm doing it because I want you to get what you want. Mostly because I don't want you to come back in ten minutes and yell at me because you are an idiot and can't order properly.

25-Don't repeat the entire order when I ask "I'm sorry, what was that last item again?"

26-If that's all the food and/or drinks you ordered and plan on ordering, and I ask you: "Will that be everything?" you say "Yes" or better yet, "Yes, please. Thank you."

27-When I ask you to please hold on for a second, there is a valid reason. Do not order anyway, chances are, if I haven't removed my headset, I either am busy with someone idiot doing something above, or my register is freezing up and I can't push buttons and therefore, cannot enter your order. Sure, I can memorize, and accurately price a lot of items, but I cannot be expected to remember huge orders with complicated custom sandwiches.

28-Light ice, extra ice, no ice, cup of ice. Anything to do with ice. I hate you all. The way the computers are set up it takes twice the time to hunt down the ice buttons than any other "grill" (custom order).

29-Speaking of ice, if you get an iced coffee YOU MAY NOT get one without ice! Fucking fucktard! You think we're too dumb to figure out that you want two for the price of one? And then to ask FOR A SECOND CUP OF ICE?! You are stupid and it hurts. Go die somewhere.

30-Ok, good for you, you know what you want to order! You've passed step one and I love you for it. Now don't be rude about it. "I want blahblahblahblah and blah" all really fast and then yell at me when I miss something because I'm literally running from the freezer with an armload of salad ingredients trying to memorize and guess the total of your order at the same time.

31-The walls of the freezer and walk-in refrigerator are so well insulated that the radio waves of the drive through intercom system cannot penetrate. I might hear the (extremely high pitched and loud) tone announcing your presence on the third or fourth beep. And, because I'm in the freezer, I probably have stuff in my arms. Now, the tone kicks in, and I leave the freezer, it’s about four more tones screeching at me before I can put down the stuff. I'm really angry by the time I can answer because you're effectively already yelling at me before I greet you, so don't be rude. I'm already stressed about you, I don't need you yelling. I know you've been waiting longer than I've known you were there, and my head already hurts from having my headset screech at me. Just order your damn food, and do so nicely, in English, with decent grammar. Is that too much to ask?

32-Do not, I repeat, do not get multiple orders for your car if everyone is paying cash. It’s dumb. Especially when you hand me a $20 for order #1, I give you the change, and you hand me back the change for order #2. Few things piss me off more.

33-Don't give me random amount of change and then complain when I have to give you back more coins then what you gave me because you can't count and didn't listen when I tried to tell you I either needed more change or you're getting a bucket load.

34-Leave your dogs at home. I hate people with dogs. I don't want to get bitten; I don't want to get licked.

35-Don't drive past window #1. I said Window one, not two. Don't try to make it my fault, you're the idiot, I've been doing this for almost two years.

36-Don't tell me how to do my job. I'm pretty sure I know how to ring things up on the register and I know how to count change. If I didn't, then why do they put me in back-booth every single day? Other crew people get moved around, I, however, do not. Because I know what I'm doing.
37-I am doing my absolute best to be polite and nice and friendly as friendly as I should be in a professional situation. Don't you dare yell at me for being rude. If I come off as rude, you had it coming.

38-To the others, see above comment about attractivety and being a costumer at McBarf. It’s flattering, I suppose, when anyone hits on me, but no. Just no. Middle aged man with kids present, don't hit on me please. Scarf man, don't serenade me, especially when you boyfriend is there too. Old man, please stop giving me candy canes, I don't care if you're being nice or hitting on me, it’s really creepy. Fat girls, you are fat, just no.

39-No, I will not stalk that boy for you even you think he's cute, even if you are cute. If I like you, why would I help you get someone else? Not that I'm interested, underage high school girl that eats at McDonalds. I'd say you're cute, but not enough to make up for your utter lack of tack.
40-Ok, so I might have a till full of money and McDonalds might be known for being the biggest fast food chain on the planet that does not, however, mean that I am a bank. Don’t use bills over ten before 7am. Don’t use bills over 50 until at least 9am. I’d rather you not use large bills at all.

41-If your window is broken, then go inside. Idiot.

42-My ears already hurt from SQEEK SQEEK!!!! Every three seconds, so take your diesel truck or other loud car and jump off a bridge.

43-Every summer it’s the same idiotic thing, bees hover around my window and people complain because they’re afraid of little, yellow bugs. Well, maybe, if you didn’t dump your old sugar-water out at my window all the time, the little, yellow bugs wouldn’t have a reason to bother you here.

44-Didn’t your mother teach you not to tail-gate? If she didn’t, she’s probably a regular here at Mc-I-failed-my-driver’s-license-test. Seriously, don’t tail-gate, it screws up our intercom system.

45-Speaking of “regular,” when it comes to McDonald’s menu, the term regular applies to two things: “I’m sorry, was there something special about that sandwich or is it regular?” and a flavor of iced coffee. Regular is not a size. Small, medium, or large, and in some cases extra-large, otherwise, please do not use the word.

46-While we’re on words that people misuse; “Extra” is a drink size when used in conjunction with “large.” It can also be used to say “I would like a Big Mac with extra cheese,” or something to that effect. There is no other time to use the term “extra.” Use the word “additional,” it’ll make you sound less moronic too.

47-You know what? I really don’t care about the balance of your bank account as long as there’s enough left to pay for your gelatinous blob of deep-fried fat. (No, I don’t mean your over-fed daughter.) So, if you can’t find all your cash immediately, use your debit card. It makes both our lives easier. And that way I don’t have to look at your fat child as long.

48-Crumpled bills are inexcusable. If you really cared about getting proper change, then you’d show it by not handing me a wad of damp money. Coins that are slimy should be washed, that’s just gross.

49-Black coffee. If you want your coffee without cream or sugar (or sugar substitute) then just say “I’d like one small, black coffee, please.” If you want us to put cream or sweetener in the coffee (or on the side) please specify how many you want while ordering the coffee item. I’m sick of every coffee order being a game of 20 Questions.

50-This should be obvious, but people are stupid. Order things on the menu. Really? Really, really? You can’t just invent items and then expect us to get it right. In that same line of though, we get this a lot during breakfast, don’t order an Egg-McMuffin and then substitute everything into a Bacon, Egg, and Cheese Biscuit. You’re an idiot.

51-Breakfast time is full of half-asleep idiots and still-drunk idiots. That is no excuse. If you order “One number three with orange juice instead of coffee,” you don’t need to say “instead of coffee” I can figure that out on my own and you’re just confusing me.

52-You do not use abbreviations when speaking aloud, especially during a business transaction, even if it is at McDonalds. I don’t say “lol” to your stupid jokes, so don’t order “A OJ” (and even if you do, at least say “an OJ”) It’s called “orange juice” learn to talk, idiot.

53-If you order extra cheese or tomato, then you must pay extra for it. This, like most of this list, should be obvious.

54-OMGWTFBBQPANTS! (pardon the abbreviations) Hang up the phone! Idiot. Not only is it rude and stupid, but I really don’t need to know that Stacey has to be at soccer practice by two and that you need to pick up dog food on the way home. Don’t call the house (after I’ve given you your total!) and ask if anyone wants something from McDonalds and then proceed to tack on 20 bucks on your order. You fail at life.

55-There’s a sign under the mic and screen where you order. It reads: “Sorry, no personal checks. Please declare any coupons when placing your order. Please have you money ready before you reach the window.” Don’t write checks. Don’t start writing one and then get mad at me because I tell you that I can’t accept it. (Aside from that, the “have your money ready” thing tends to slow people down, but I guess people are just slow.)

56-Do not, under any circumstances, smoke in the drive through. I don’t care how addicted you might be, put the thing out before I use your eye socket as an ash tray.

57-See number 55, there’s a sign. So don’t go and throw a coupon at me when you get to my window without warning me during your order. Also, don’t make me tear the coupon out for you, not only are you fat and stupid, but lazy as well.

Dance, dance, and more dance.

2008-03-17T08:22:25Z

First of all, Happy St. Patrick's Day everyone! I'm not even remotely catholic, but today is more of an Irish heritage day than anything else. As such, Irish dancers are in high demand so it’s just something I've gotten used to. I am to be dancing at the "Cathy McMorris for Congress St. Patrick's Day Breakfast" today, followed by a small tour of local retirement homes, as is tradition. I have to be there at 6:45am, roughly five hours from now, which means waking up at about 4:30 am to get ready and get my brother moving. And, of course, I can't sleep at all lol.

The show, which I've mentioned a little here, went well. It was Saturday. You know, things will always go wrong here and there in any performance now matter how much you practice, and that's ok. I'm generally happy with the show. I just wish that once the final curtain dropped, I could have just gone to bed and not dealt with dancers and dance drama crap for three hours following the end of the show. I don't care what it looked like Emma, it wasn't going to happen so just stfu and gtfo, ty. Ahem. I like eyeliner, its stage make-up, deal with it. Person whose name I will not mention, and is not a dancer but still involved in dance drama I sorely wish to kill in a most violent and gruesome manner. Ah, isn't love complicated? Speaking of which, also to Emma, if you don't like me like "that," then why are you so damn clingy? We've been through this, you are a tolerated but not completely trust-worthy friend. That's it. Nothing more. Leave me alone. Stop texting me so much. Micah, if you're reading this, don't tell Emma I said that, I'll just get yelled at by her sister -.-;;; ok, enough ranting.

Apparently, Christian Slater, movie actor whom I've only heard a little about but I guess is big news, is currently filming in Spokane and came to the show. Through many convoluted paths, I came to find that Mr. Slater was present during the performance and liked it. He thought the Pirate Queen number was "cute," I guess. My mom's internet-friend's sister lives in Deer Park and her daughter goes to the Deer Park Home Link (thing) where Margaret teachs Irish Dance classes as part of school curriculum aaaaaand the daughter and the sister of the friend were sitting next to Mr. Slater at the show. Is your head spinning yet? Because mine is. Tis a small, small world after all.

Pardon me while I shoot myself for making an "Its a Small World" referance.

Anywho, in book news, something is extremely screwy with my computer and/or Word '07 and I'm just going to completely disregard its page counting. I started writing at full-swing about a week ago, only to be stopped when crunch-time for the show hit. I've rewritten this last sub-chapter about five times now, throwing in a huge plot twist that forced me to change half the outline. The plot remains the same, but I had to cut some characters out of the action for awhile before I went insane. I feel like a puppeteer whose strings are constantly getting tangled, running a party of six important characters across an epic quest. Time warps are evidently the most convenient plot device I've encountered. Or it’s just a fancy plot-hole, either way you look at it >.>;; whatever lol.

I think I may really be quitting dance for good and perhaps running away to California to get away from dance drama and stuff. I'm not really absolutely sure because the thought of making such a big move terrifies me, but at the same time there's someone I have to get away from before I go completely insane. I just can't take it anymore. Don't worry; it’s probably no one that's reading this, lol. I would elaborate, but I cannot. ^^;

~ "Break a leg, but not your own! <3"

Ah hahahahaha. No.

2008-03-01T08:03:49Z

So, I was thinking of posting yet another emo-tastic rant, because life continues to suck and so on and so forth. I really shouldn't, but that's what this journal is for, right? I rolled my left ankle on Monday, but its better now. Hurt my other ankle at practice today. Show is in two weeks. Over 200 tickets have sold, out of 750 lol. I'm not the only one with injuries too, it sucks. Someone broke her wrist, two others twisted their ankles, and someone else stepped on a shard of glass. I'l be so glad when all of this mess is over. My other major issue currently, the V on my laptop only works when I slam it down, causing many a typo. Not that it has anything to do with dance.

Oh right, and I think I'm in love. Er, well I'm certain. Which is never, ever a good thing. I won't go into detail, mainly because I don't want to filter this post. Love just makes me want to die. Indeed. So to cheer myself up, I'll post some survey things I stole from callise.

1. Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Does "hypnotic" count?

2. What kind of computer do you have?
Dell XPS - M1710

3. What have you learned today?
Certain people should not wear headbands because it makes them all the more irresistibly adorable.

4. How many different people of the opposite sex have you cried over?
Um...one.

5. Do you like to smile?
I have to have a reason to smile. Most of my smiles are fake.

6. How tall are you?
5'11

7. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I'd rather not grow any older. When I grow up I want to be a magic-wielding sixteen year old blue haired Okorii. Or a writer. Probably go with writer, it sounds slightly more sane.

8. What time do you usually wake up on the weekends?
5:30am

9. Do you like peanut butter?
I used to, not so much anymore.

10. What is your favorite class in high school?
I blocked out all my memories from that accursed time.

11. How much did you weigh when you were born?
Idk I was premature and underweight.

12. What brand of body lotion do you use?
Bath and Body or something, I don't buy it, I steal from my mother.

13. Should country music die?
Yes. Absolutely.

14. If you could live in any other country, which one would you pick?
Do the ones I made up for my book count?

15. Where were you when you heard about the World Trade Towers?
My living room.

16. Are camera phones worth it?
Worth what, exactly?

17. Are there too many commercials on tv?
I don't really watch T.V. so why would I care?

18. How many times have you moved?
Twice, both when I was too young to remember.

19. What color are your bed sheets?
Dark blue.

20. What would you look for in choosing a roommate?
Someone I can trust. I have yet to find someone I can totally trust that wants to be my roommate, which is why I still live at home.

21. Do you ever keep arguing even when you know you’re wrong?
I'm never wrong! Ha. Depends on how mad I am.

22. What are the 5 top physical traits you look at first in the appearance of the opposite sex?
Uh. Yeah that's not awkward at all.
1-Eyes
2-Jaw line
3-Hips? idk
4-This line is blank
5-No answer

23. Do long distance relationships work?
They could, if both parties are willing and truly love each other.

24. Scuba-diving or Sky-diving?
Neither! Oh, I have to pick one? I pick... Scuba-Sky! lol take that.

25. Is there anyone you'd die for?
slkdgflzsdhgjkjasbvkuahsjrb Maybe. Yes. I don't want to talk about it. Love makes me want to die, does that count?

26. Spell your name without an E, R, S, H, K, i, M, A, :
LXND NY well that's stupid.

27. What are you listening to?
The fan in my room and the idiots laughing at the glowing box downstairs.

28. Is any part of your body sore?
My legs. I just got home from dance an hour ago, what do you expect?

29. Are you happy with your life right now?
Uhhh... not really.

30. Are you missing anyone?
My sanity? Witty answer 12b.

31. How do you earn money?
By whoring myself out on Sprague Avenue. I work at McDonalds too.

32. Are you outgoing?
Only if I know the people, which I suppose means no.

33. Where do you wish you were right now?
Somewhere that I didn't have to listen to myself be so damned emo.

34. Are you slowly drifting away from someone close?
I wish I was. I need to. It'd just be better that way, but nooooooo. I'll just have to do something so unforgivably horrible that no one at dance will ever speak to me again.

35. When was the last time you felt unbearably guilty?
Sorry to sound so damn emo, but right now would be a good time. Or when I tried to kill myself, but that was two years ago. Getting close to that level of guilt again, but I think I can handle it more maturely this time.

36. How is life going for you right now?
Did you not read the rest of my post? You idiot. Go drown in a fire. :3

38. Who can you tell everything to?
Trusted friends. They know who they are.

39. Who was the last person you talked to on AIM?
Moony. And it was MSN, because AIM is for losers and housewives.

40. Last words you spoke?
Er... I don't know, probably something about whatever show my brother is watching.

41. Did you date someone you regret dating?
Not really. Maybe I felt like that right after the break up, but not anymore. I haven't really dated much, so I wouldn't have much to pick from.

42. What is your natural hair color?
Light brown.

43. What is the next concert you're going to?
Um... idk. Micah might drag me off to another one of those punk christian things. *shudder*

44. Can you play guitar hero?
Wouldn't know, don't care to try.

45. Do you like someone?
Again, read the post. Idiot. Ok, well I suppose, technically, I'm the one asking because it is my journal, but still, this question is dumb.

46. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?
I prefer weather that is cold or hot, because people shouldn't live forever because they weren't meant to live forever so I wouldn't want to live forever. I like slightly chilly weather, but spring is a welcome change.

47. Who is your last text from?
Emma, who else? lol.
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I had to fix so many of those questions it’s almost sad. This meme must have been written by a fifth-grader.
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SERiES 0NE - Y0U
Birth time: Around 9pm
Last place you traveled: Dance
Eye Color: Light blue with a greenish tint sometimes.
Nail Color: I like to paint them black and blue. But I don't much anymore.
Height: 5'11
Zodiac Sign: What does this mean exactly? Virgo, year of the Tiger. I guess that cover all my bases.

SERiES TW0 - DESCRiBE
Your heritage: Irish, Dutch, Polish, Jewish(?), my mother is adopted so I don't really know all of it.
The shoes you wore today: Black "skater" shoes, dance shoes.
Your hair: Recently cut it really short and dyed it dark brown.
Your weakness: Lots of things, I'll go with mocha to keep emo at a minimum.
Your fears: Having my world domination plans foiled by meddling kids and their stupid dog.
Your perfect pizza: Veggie, the good kind, not that Pizza Pipeline crap.
One thing you'd like to achieve: World Domination? I'd like to finish my book. Um get through this show without killing myself or Emma, or Micah, or my brother.

SERiES ThREE - WHAT IS..
Your most overused phrase on messenger: let's make a list, shall we? Items separated by commas: ^^, ^^;, >.>;, <.<;, good boy, lol, random keyboard smashing, *headdesk*, /headdesk, /wave, and finally <3
Your thoughts first waking up: "I can still sleep for five more minutes."
Your current worry: That I have too many secrets and they’re gonna hurt me in the end.
Your plans tomorrow: Work and sleep.
Your best physical feature: I guess my eyes. My hair looks nice right now, I guess. I don't really know.
Your greatest accomplishment: Uhhmm. I don't know.

SERiES F0UR - Y0U PREFER
Sunrise or sunset: Twilight.
Gore or horror: I like to write gore, it makes me giggle.
Eastsiiiide or wessssside: Go diiiieeeeee.
Stripes or polka dots: Checkers! Nah, stripes are cool.
Money or fame: Can't I have both? Money, most certainly.
Planes or trains: Airships! I don't care if its not an option. I want an armada of airships.
Metal or hardcore: Jrock.
Boxers or briefs: Shoes.
Your life is: awkrhajesbndakjrbawbawrgbw *headdesk*
Pools or hot tubs: Depends, do I get to pick my company in said place?

SERiES FiVE - D0 Y0U
Do you think you've been in love: Um.
Want to get married: If I find the right person? Probably won't though. I have... erm. Issues.
Like to take baths: Not really.
Get motion sickness: Sometimes.
Like talking on the phone: Only if its someone I want to talk to.
Like thunderstorms: Yesh.
Play an instrument: Nope.
Workout: Dance.
Like reading: Of course.

SERiES SIX - FAVORITES
Kind of fruit: I'll just leave this one blank.
Music to fall asleep to: Music keeps me awake, usually because its either annoying or I want to listen to it.
Time of the day: The time when my brain shuts off and I don't have to listen to it.
--there was a question here, but I don't want to answer it, so if you steal this from me, just make something up.--
Car: Porsche 911 turbo in electric blue
Number: 5492? Creepy. I don't really care about numbers that much. They depress me.
Thing to do right before bed: Um. I try to write some before I sleep, ever if its unless AU crap.
Era: Don't really have one, Earth history doesn't interest me much. I'd rather spend the time working on my never-ending book series.
Horror movie: I don't really like horror movies. I might watch one if I had someone to watch it with. idk.
Colors: Blue. And blue. Dark blue by itself and pale blue with black.

SERIES SEVEN - FUTURE
Age you hope to be married: I don't intend on aging, so it doesn't matter.
Numbers & Names of Children: If I ever have a child, which I seriously doubt will happen; I'd name it Julian or Julia depending on the gender. I know its horribly stalkerish, but I have my reasons and I like the name.
How do you want to die: A horribly violent and theatrical manner. It'll probably be suicide. Or, really, it'll probably be something really stupid and I'll be so upset about it I'll wander the Earth for all eternity killing people in theatrically horrible ways to make up for my stupid death.
Where you want to go to college: I don't know. I haven't gone yet, might not bother.
What do you want to be when you grow up: Didn't I already answer this question?
What country would you most like to visit: And this one too? Brazil, Ireland, Tovenaar, Celetiir, Iirhalm, Viridara? It’s so hard to pick just one.

Go find something more constructive to do with your time. Memes are useless. Which is why I sit up until nearly midnight writing on this instead of working on my book or sleeping. I fail.

Happy whateveryouwannacallitday!

2007-12-25T19:18:00Z

To show my "Christmas Spirit," I present this icon to everyone:

and a Happy New Year.

What a lovely shade of death, my dear.

2007-12-22T07:46:43Z

So, my last entry talks about the Christmas Party thing, yes? I forgot now but ok. I have pictures to show!

If you're emo and you know it clap your hands.
*clapclap*

So yeah. I've been informed that this look "isn't me" and doesn't "capture my personality" but I like it and I'm confedent about it enough to post pictures...that include my face *shock* taken with my cellphone, no editing at all, no photoshop, the green one is what my cell does in total darkness with a flash. And my mirror is a little dirty, sorry.

Someone mistook this for a character out of Final Fantasy: Advent Children, I was quite flattered lol

This one looks a tad bit too girly, but that's what "emo" is all about, right? lol

Just a bit creepy >.>;

I like this one, even though its all green >.> lol

Palace of Eternal Blinding

2007-12-20T03:51:15Z

Gah. I have like ... no... idea what to get poeple for "christmas" ><; I spent the last four hours at the mall and I have gifts for maybe half the poeple on my list?

I don't really have much to report on today. I felt like I should write something so I could use that subject title thing. Its what I call the palace in {sea} because of the white walls, floor, cieling, monsters, everything blinding white worse than {Valkrum Dunes} on crack. I spent close to three and a half hours helping my ls with CoP 8-2 ...my eyes are still stinging a day later lol. Ok, enought ffxi babble.

McDonald's "crew" "holiday" party is tomorrow. At Chuck E. Cheese's. I only wish I were joking. In honor of the oh-so-tasteless choice of venue, I'm going full emo-tastic, everything short of dying my hair lol (and the piercing, cause I can't find my fake ones) It shall be most fun. I might even post a picture, if I dond't blind myself with eyeliner.

Speaking of work, we're closed for Christmas, which is a Tuesday, therefore, for the first time in five months, I get two days off in a row! zomg.

Off to wrap what little gifts I have and repaint my nails >.>;; yeah I know that sounds bad, but I won't have time after work before the party and the look just would't be compleat without blue and black nails. (tangent! I painted my nails last week for this concert thing and I just left 'em until today, and boy was work interesting with crazy nails. I mean, whataever its just paint, right? You'd think differently if you saw the looks on the costumer's faces . Ah, its so gratifying knowing that I can at least scare a few people without waving knives at them.)

An entirely different set of daggers

2007-12-11T05:41:49Z

Hello everypersonthingandobjectthing!

Dance continues to be lame. So does work. And that little thing called life.

I started the fanfic I swore I'd never wright. The one about blahblahblah and such. I don't want to give away the plot because I might post it here. I had decided not to write it as a fanfic but rather traslate it to Paardhail and make it my third book. Sadly, I have hit yet another writer's block episode, as if there's a factory pumping blocks out just for me. So, when I was hit with insperation to write, fanfic or not, I took it and ran. Its been awhile since I actual enjoyed writing, too bad any versoin of this latest tangent will have to be heavily editted for... content reasons, before I can post it anywhere. Unless I get permission from certain persons. Being that it is set in FFXI, there are few stock characters, so when I use my friend's names and personalities I feel like I owe it to them to get otherization to use their orginal character names and such.

That aside, I'll post this pointless meme. I did this one last year lol but oh well. Out of all the holiday mems floating around, this one's a classic.

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In February I punched phett in the arm (-10 points). In May I stole nakimas's purse (-30 points). In November I pushed nazgilly21 in the mud (-17 points). In January I ate my brussel sprouts (1 points). In October I put gum in fish_n_chips's hair (-12 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-68 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!

Sincerely,
azure-lord

I have a few things to say about that one, but I'll keep them to myself lol

edit: I found that if you press the submit button on that meme again, you get a whole new answer! So I kept pushing it until I got this gem.

Dear Santa...

Dear Santa,

This year I've been busy!

In September I invaded Iraq, broke it, and couldn't glue it back together before Mom got home (-1012 points). Last Friday I gave timid_vampire a kidney (1000 points). In February I committed genocide... Sorry about that, nakimas (-5000 points). Last Thursday fish_n_chips and I robbed a bank (-50 points). In June I set easypreyffxi's puppy on fire (-66 points).

Overall, I've been naughty (-5128 points). For Christmas I deserve total world domination!

Sincerely,
Azure_lord

I Think that fits my year a bit better, except the art about giving away organs. Ew. My other favorite was the one that said I broke my own Xbox360 (-19 points), personally I think I should get + points for that one lol. I may have edited my reawrd slightly >.>

industrial strength nail polish remover

2007-12-04T22:02:40Z

So, just because its tradition, its time to... rant about how much I hate my job! but first, this advertisement!

Just kidding? >.> Yeah, so, today at work, manager!kevin put me on "meats"(the "kitchen" or "grill" where food products are "prepared") which is fine and all, except not. Sure, I get a break from the torturous chasm of hellfire known as "drive through" but at the cost of it being the end of the fucking world every three seconds. Timers going off non-stop, putting this and that and the other thing to cook, only to have the first two items start to burn half way through starting the third item. And then to be interrupted will all of the above with manager!kevin screaming about needing catsup or something. it was quite the work out, running around for hours on a slippery floor next to 300+ degree grills and oil vats.

I need to go shopping for gifts. I know it doesn't make sense. I'm not Christian, why should I celebrate a (stolen and heavily warped) Christian holiday? Let alone spend my hard-earned money on silly little gifts? I have no idea. But I have a list long enough to choke a... ok I'll spare you all from that joke. Anyway. Shopping. Need to do.

Industrial strength nail polish, you say? Well, its a long and convoluted tale of woe and flat tires. I'll give you the "reader's digest" version: I colored my nails with black ink, then covered that with sever layers of black nail polish and left it on for about three days. When I tried to take off the polish, the ink had stained my nails pretty badly. Thankfully, after three hours of scrubbing with nail polish remover and two hours with industrial strength graffiti cleaner, my nails are no longer emo!black. They are, however, dried out, as is my skin. The graffiti remover stuff is one of those cleaning chemicals with all the "do not leave near children, eyes, skin. do not taste or swallow blahblahblah." I was reeling from the fumes of the crap after two hours of exposure. T'was most fun, because this was all at work this morning. Where else would you find industrial strength graffiti cleaner? (the normal nail enamel remover stuff I did at home last night)

I should work on my book, but I'm lazy.

Why, helloooooo

2007-11-09T00:23:31Z

I sure have been posting a lot lately. Oh well, sorry for the spam.

So, I don't remeber if I said anyhting on here about this but... I've been writing some short stories starring my characters. This is mainly due to writer's block and a head full of plot bunnies that don't apply well to my book. I posted the most, erm, tame might be the right word, one of the stories on my Deviant Art page, which can be found: Here. I call it "McHell" Its about the main character from book three trapped taking my place at McDonalds. >.> lol

Back to trying to work on my book. Weeee.

Memes are for loosers too

2007-11-07T00:32:56Z

I'm bored so its time for a meme where I generally avoid really answering anything.

1] Who has your heart?
Ahahaha, like I said, avoiding the questions >.>;

2] How did you wake up this morning?
To my alarm and slightly late as usual.

3] Which is more romantic: sunrise or sunset?
twilight?

4] Are you wearing any non-clothing items?
two silver rings, one silver bracelet set with black onyx and one silver chain that holds a small moonstone.

5] What did you do yesterday?
dance

6] Who was the last person you called?
umm... Emma, mostly because someone said said I should call. :3 >.>;

7] Would you die for anyone?
There's only one person I'd die for.

8] Did you meet anyone new today?
Yes, some new girl at work that no one likes because she's a bitch aaand her being hired there chased off a few good people.

9] Have you ever been on the radio?
Nope, been on TV a few times though

10] What did you drink today?
Lemonaid

11] Do you like honey?
Sometimes, mostly in my tea lol

12] What's the last bone you broke?
My toe, if not the recent injury then the time I kicked the couch (while dancing lol) and before that I broke a rib wgile skating... and... blahblahblah

13] Do you know the date?
11/6/07

14] Where was the last place you went shopping?
Umm.. Macey's

15] Did you sing at all today??
A little while I did dishes at work

16] When's the last time you cried?
exactly one week before halloween

17] How many letters are there in your last name?
6

18] Status of your ex and you?
Which one? lol. I'd say we managed frendships but it took a few years.

19] Do you love anyone other than family & friends?
yes

20] What book did you read last?
Just finished Eclipse last night and the ending was... hrmm I'm not happy about it.

21] How was your day?
work took forever and I on;y just got home about an hour ago. I do so hate my job. That doesn't come across with the correct intonations in text. Bleh.

22] Is your shirt dirty?
A little, still wearing work clothes cause I'm lazy like that, at least right now.

23] Do you live near your best friend?
That's a difficult question, because I don't really know who my best friend is, if I had to pick a few, they're all at least a thousand miles away. 1,365 miles by road. ahem, mapquest is fun.

25] Are you scared of spiders?
I think small spiders are cute, the bigger ones can stay away though. I'll only kill them if they're in the house though.

26] Do you have any tattoos or piercings?
Nope.

27] Can you play guitar?
Not at all

28] How do you walk?
I don't really know how to answer that.... haha I don't walk, I float. I wish. lol

29] What do you think of Fergie?
Make it die?

30] Do you read Rolling Stone?
Does that have anything to do with jewery tublers? Ok I know what it is, but I don't read it.

31] Do you believe in love?
Most certainly.

32] Have you seen Titanic?
Unfortunatly

33] Did it make you cry?
Not even slightly. I did winch when the guy got chopped up by the prapeller thing.

35] How old do you want to be when you have kids?
793 sounds good to me

36] Who was the last person you rode in a car wit?
My little brother

37] When was the last time you were so drunk you threw up?
Never happened to me

38] What are you doing tomorrow?
Work, then if I'm not too exashusted I'll try to write

39] Where were you five hours ago?
At work

40] When were you last drunk and with who?
Um like a month and a half ago and by myself

41] What are you wearing right now?
Red button up shirt with a golden M machien embroidered to it and too large black slacks.

42] What are you listening to?
Nothing at the moment. Silence is golden.

43] Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?
Not in the last week, should buy a new coat soon though.

44] What is the last thing you purchased online?
Hmmm its been awhile, probably a video game or imported dance shoes from Ireland

45] Did you have fun today?
No part of work is fun, but my day isn't over yet.

46] Do you curse a lot?
I swear like a salior, but not when I'm outside. I get it from my mother. lol

47] Are you an honor roll student in school?
Ah hahahahahahaha. No.

48] What do you know about the future?
I once planned on killing billions of people for their souls so I could force open a dimensional rift and turn earth in to the planet of my books. I had planned on letting a few survive, like ten. But something recently changed my mind about destroying Earth. Not that it would have worked anyway, right?

49] Where was the last place you slept besdies your house?
A hotel in California

50] Do you want a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Yes and I know exactly who, not that I'll say it here.

Nothing to report on otherwise, I just felt insipred. See the post below for updates.

Subject lines are for loosers

2007-11-06T05:31:09Z

I did just post what's below on MySpace, so please pardon the distant feeling to it. I'm rather too lazy to fix tense and change explinations. I do feel like Lj knows me better than MySpace. I still don't like MySpace all that much, mostly because I've been with Lj for so long. I won't go into my reason for poking around MySpace because most people aren't as stupid as I'd make them out to be and I'd rather not have strangers figure out my thought patterns.

Well, well. I do so hate daylight savings time. Costumers at work (McDonalds, terrible, isn't it?) get awfully angry when the times change but their eating habits lag behind. I don't know how many people yelled at me because we were still serving breakfast at what they though was 11am.

I've been reading Stephanie Meyer's vampire books lately, almost done with the last one, in fact. Something about knowing a story is coming to an end has always been hard for me. I spent about two years dragging out Zelda:OoT just because I didn't want it to end. Yes, I'm pathetic. Less than 50 pages to go with Eclipse, I should just get it over with instead of letting it bug me.

Almost done with the new choreography for the big St. Patrick's Day show, being an Irish Dancer puts you in high demand for stuff around that time, and the dance school I'm currently with managed to reserve the "Bing Crosby Theatre" (used to be the Metropolitan until two years ago) It’s the second biggest stage in town, second only to the Opera House, which I doubt I'll ever perform on lol.

I think I may have really broken my toe. I kicked a wall at work, as I do from time to time. That was about three weeks ago now, and my toe still hurts. I can move it and it never swelled up or anything so it must be minor. I can still dance, so its not too bad.

I should buckle down and work on my book. Perchance, that's what I'll do when I'm done reading Eclipse. I guess I'll stop waiting. I was only really writing this to distract me while I waited. Guess you're asleep. I should be too, have work at 6am tomorrow lol.

Haha I p|-|41Lz

2007-10-29T05:40:07Z

Yeah, everyone can just disregard that last post. I was just overreacting, as usual, right? I'm trying to work on it lol. At least I have that damned acid reflux under control for the most part, right?

Just bought New Moon, second in that series thing. Haven't started reading it yet. idk.

I had another thought to add to this but now I forget. Idk. Things. And. Stuff.

Bought some new clothes at Macy’s *gasp* way over priced, but I figured it was about time I gave myself something for not killing anyone at work. I might go back to a cheaper department store and buy some new collared shirts though cause I need a wider variety and spell check.

Went bowling with Emma and her youth group thing. Total waste of gas. Drove all the way out to the valley (and got compleatly lost on the way there) to bowl for about an hour. Yeah. I suck at bowling too. Uhg. Emma, if you're reading this, you have no business reading my Lj and I hope the above statement made you cry, or at least makes you see that I'm getting tired of your antics. ahem I'll remove the rest of what I was going to say. I may be in a far better mood right now buuut yeah. Anyway.

Had some new ideas for my (third) book. Might try to work on writing soonish. Hopefully I won't have to spend the whole day at dance tomorrow. I thought I broke my toe on wednesday cause I kicked a wall (out of rage) really hard and like lost my balance and stuff. Its hard to explain in text, mostly because I'm lazy.

I think its getting time to dye my hair again. My roots are already showing -.-;;; I'll probably let it go for another few months though while constantly saying I need to get it fixed (like last time) I think I'll go black next just cause. Or keep the red, idk. I like the highlights, but the get lost under my hat at work so it doesn't really seem worth it.

I'm very sleepy all of a sudden, guess I'm like emotionally exhausted from worrying over nothing and now that I know I can stop my brain says that I need some sleep.

My, my.

2007-10-27T06:50:33Z

Well, I really haven't had time to update lately. I haven't even touched my book in the last month at least. Yes, I read your comment Lan, but I didn't know how to respond without sounding desffensive. I did, however, go and edit a lot shortly after my last post.

Anyway, I don't really know what to say here, as per usual. I just finished reading Twilight by Stephenie Meyer. It was pretty good, but a little out of my norm. Um yeah.

My life has taken some very unnexpected turns lately which have left me rather mentally dizzy. Due to the, um, range of people that might be reading this, I can't really explain it.

Right then. This is awefully awkward, but I thought I should update. Time for bed now, work at 6am. Fun. -.-;

(And you, you know who you are. If you read this, text me or something so I know you're not dead. You're starting to worry me. I'm trying very, very hard not to be overly clingy. Sorry.)

Being drunk...

2007-09-27T01:03:27Z

...is totaly overrated.

I went and drank an entire bottle of rasberry smirnoff ice, mostly because I have no self controll and just kept drinking. >.>; It tasted way better than the crappy wine I had on my birthday, too. But yeah, the "buzz" lastest for maybe two hours and now I just have a bad headache. Big deal. I don't understand drunks. Serisouly, lol. Oh, and I guess my spelling improves when I'm at the height of drunk, too bad I can't spell decently all the time.

Also, to callise, sorry about the lack of response to your comment, I'm totally not used to complements and I realy don't know how to respond grascialy to that lol. (Except with perhaps my long-winded and well-practiced speach about all the plastic surgery I've wanted since I was ten >.>; )

I think I'm making some progress on my book, if only I could see through the haze of my minor-hangover thing. Off to go attempt at writting.

You would too if it happend to you

2007-09-22T03:11:18Z

Bah. I've been all depressed and stuff all day. I'm so sick of being like this. Anyway.

I promised pictures of my new hair. These aren't very good cause you can't see the highlights. Anyway, lot's of pictures below the cut. Strangly I didn't touch these up, which is odd. All I did was resize them. And to top it off, you can see my face. Holy crap. I know.

There it is, not much else to say. My head hurts from all the hair spray and stuff. I should go get drunk now or something.

hurray?

2007-09-21T18:43:56Z

Well, its offcial. I'm old. Today's my 21st birthday >.> bleh.

In other news, for those that know and/or care, my hair is now utterly insane. Alavan red with white-blond highlights. I look like I stole some cheap hookers wig. Somehow, I doubt I'll be going back to that hair place. I'm honestly afraid to go outside now. Yikes.

Bah. I think I'm gonna go spike my hair and get all dressed up to go to work and get next week's schedual (which Kevin was nice enough to start yesterday... I hate not knowing my schedual until the day before it takes effect)

Damn people that log on to msn then don't respond to messages. Yeah I'm talking to you. You know who you are. (Thankfully I'm pretty sure you don't read my Lj >.>)

Don't get your stupid on me, please.

2007-09-16T04:25:35Z

Breaking my "post every other day" habbit here, sorry. >.>;

Writter's block is a bitch. Yeah. So I hit page 49 offcialy, but nothing written on that page right now cause I fail. Word count right now: 30,292. I think ten or so of that is suggested title ideas and stuff so its probably more like 30,280 of story (if its counting my *** breaker things as words, idk) its over 30k and that makes me happy.

So, in other news... I have nothing more to say right now. Um.... Yeah....

I bought 10-14 of Tsubasa Resivior Chronicles, or whatever wierd caps-lock error brought about that strange title. Anyway, now the I have all volumes out so far in English, I have to go read them. After which I'll finish EverQuest: The Blood Red Harp by Elain Cunningham, followed by RG Veda (CLAMP again just cause) at which point I have about 7 new games I bought but haven't played.

I'll list those off too just for fun. Let's see. Firstly, I have yet to finish: Heroes of Mana, Dawn of Mana, Children of Mana (I sense a theme) I think I fishsed Sword of Mana awhile ago... hmm. Also yet to finish Fire Emblem which I've had for years, but recently lost in the churning seas of my room. Oh and on the last boss of Final Fantasy III DS remake.

Games I have yet to start: Lumnous Arch, Final Fantasy IV, FFV, Final Fantasy (the first one, remade for PSP, which I just bought two days ago) Fire Emblem: Sacred Stones (won't start until I find and finish the first one), and finaly... I managed to find Final Fantasy Tactics Advanced after months of searching.

OK so that's 11 games then ... >.>; And to top all that off I have the following pre-ordered: The Legend of Zelda: Phantom Hourglass, Final Fantasy Tactics somethingseomthing a new one for the PSP and I guess Balthier of FFXII fame makes an appearance. And finaly, Final Fantasy: Revenant Wings (sequil to FFXII on the DS)

So 14 games I either have or shall soon have that I have yet to finish (or start). Six of the 14 are stratagy games, which are fun for awhile but then I have to take months away from because I get so frustrated with them. I get a little OCD (pardon the phrase, people call me OCD all the time and I'm starting to agree...anyway....) I have to get perfect scores on mission/chapters for tactics games which means doing the same senario over and over and over....

Wow didn't think I'd write this much, but today might need a cut after all. But then, lanshire didn't cut his last post >.>;

Off to write the next -big scence- or maybe read tsubasa or soemthing... >.> lol

blood tastes funny

2007-09-15T04:02:38Z

Well, well, have I a story to tell you. The sentence struture there makes my head hurt but I think I'll keep it. Anyway, on to a story.

My last bloody nose was documented here, so I figred I should update everyone. The tale goes alittle something like this: Yesterday (Thursday the 12 of September, 2007) I punched myself in the face resulting in a bleedin nosething. Yeah. I was explaining this girl from dance camp, those of you who were there.... Well, anyway, this crazy girl had -the hand- she would act as if her hanf had a mind of its own and would attack herself in the facial region, as well as attacking others. I was busy demonstrating this oddity when I struck my nose harder than intended with the palm of my hand. it took a moment before the blood started to run, but when it decided to go, it went. About 20 minutes later I stopped bleeding, but man I'm still dizzy from it well over 30 hours after. I even like blacked out yesterday after I got home from work. Not fun. I think I'm getting better slowly, but I must have lost a whole lot more blood than I thought if its still effecting me. Not that I would go to a doctor unless I was certain it was life-threatening, because the last few trips have been painfully expensive and utterly pointless "there's nothing we can do to help, it might get better if you're lucky"

Speaking of blood, I had a very disturbing dream about blood and killing people. I think I was a vampire or something. That's about al I can say on that.

I totally feel like I should update my journal layout thing, because its been like this -forever-. But then I'm lazy, so we'll see. Off to force out more work on book, even if I can't really even see straight let alone think properly lol. Also, I know my spelling is awfull. It always is unless I comb through it carefully and with the help of SpellCheck, but right now, as usual, I don't feel like bothering. Sorry.

omgshoes

2007-09-13T01:42:18Z

So, writers block again. Yeah, again. This sucks. I finaly finish the big scence omg :D and then promtly hit a wall. Right now I have a fic-lette about a dead girl in a road because that's all that I can manage to write! I know it makes no sense. Since when has anyhting I write make sense?

I feel like I should say more, but idk. Rhyen seems to think that I should promote my book on MySpace like this, but I find MySpace immposible to operate and navagate. I let someone, not saying whom, read the 47 pages I have right now (heavey handed editing run kinda hacked away a few pages there lol) I'm incredably nervous at the thought of someone reading and forming a negative opinion about my book. I know that'll happen, but its still really in the beginning stages, even after a year of work, resurch, forming back stories, maps, system of magic, all sorts of stuff. I'm hoping for a full-fledged 500 or so pages. I think the plot has enough for that much, but its all those little snags that sow me down. Like the "what now" I know where general direction of everything is going, but bullet points are vastly different than a flowing story.

Well I'm off to pace my basement until I come up with an idea or my knee gives out, whichever happen first. lol >.>

A curse on aaaaaaaaaalll your houses

2007-09-11T02:38:13Z

I've been compelled to post a lot here, because that's what I do when I want to work on my book but can't manage to press forward....

So I've finaly reached the gate opening ceremony, and I just don't know how to explain it in words because its so much like... the sort of stuff from confusing dreams mixed with flashy, fast edited anime battle sequences... perhaps lucid dreaming could help me put together all the jumbled half-images, if that sort of thing works.

So, speaking of dreams, I dreamed I was running through this shopping mall. I keep having dreams about a mall, and there's all sorts of crazy stuff. Like there's a giant bag full of coffee, a huge toy store devoted to Harry Potter, another to replicas of Zelda stuff.... and I'm always on some adventure or something, running through the rosegarden/prkinglot with a sword in hand or something. And then randomly I find myself at work and there's some costumer trying to get in the kitchen... so naturally I blast him with lightening bolts. But miss and blow up the fry station, then given up maic and strangle him until his eyes pop out. >.> then I'm back in the mall or something. I know you needed to hear that, I'm just using my Lj to focus jumbleded thoughtses like those found at the bottom of a recently emptied wine bottle, ok? lol

Also, I start paragraphs with "so" too much. My head feels like small boney creatures with big, sharp claws like sabers are trying to escape my skull via my forehead. And everyone should watch this videa cause its cool and the song is awsome: A Neverending Dream - Cascada, Kingdom Hearts AMV

Hope I made that link right >.>; /wave